I’d decided to finally go to church for the first time this year but the devil works in mysterious ways, i stumbled upon a new movie coming out in 3 months but has a novel (bl erotica). I don’t know how I deceived myself all these years that i preferred movies to novels, tonight my heart aches like never before, it’s a bittersweet pain i can never get from a movie, my heart’s been frozen for too long. How will I face the church now.