This man called me and asked if I could write and I said yes. It was a suicide note to his mother saying sorry because he failed her as a son by being not successful even with his PhD degree and his ex-fiance who left him 2 months to the “low budget” wedding he was planning because she didn’t want to be a laughing stock and she didn’t see a future with him after 6 years. I offered no solution because I didn’t even know what was happening. Retrospectively, maybe a sentence could have changed. I later heard a 33 year old man died around the area. I blamed myself because I was smarter than that. I still can’t understand why my brain was too slow to comprehend what was happening. I was 13 and it’s been 14 years since this happened but I’ve forgiven myself.
in Confession