My friends think I’m afraid of sex. I was, not anymore. I was abused as a child so I find it hard to feel any attachments when I have sex. My cousin introduced me to a guy that I feel madly in love with and actually thought we connected. We dated for a few months and he got back with his ex. I was heartbroken. Now I just live my life carelessly. I hookup with people for money. Not that I need the money badly. I’m just living carelessly. My friends still think I’m the small girl scared of sex.