My friends think I’m afraid of sex. I was, not anymore. I was abused as a child so I find it hard to feel any attachments when I have sex. My cousin introduced me to a guy that I feel madly in love with and actually thought we connected. We dated for a few months and he got back with his ex. I was heartbroken. Now I just live my life carelessly. I hookup with people for money. Not that I need the money badly. I’m just living carelessly. My friends still think I’m the small girl scared of sex.
in Confession
Connotare 
Dear poster, going through a heartbreak is one of the most emotionally draining experiences that one can ever go through but the truth is that time ALWAYS heals the pain, trust me on that. Living carelessly now may deaden the pain but it can’t make it go away totally. I don’t want to judge you, but you may actually be doing yourself more harm than good. I leave you with one of my favourite phrases in life, “things can only get better”.