I dated this guy three years ago and we broke up over a flimsy reason. He tried coming back but I wasn’t ready for a relationship. Now, he has a girlfriend who he loves and I’m also in love with him. He is a good person to me and he has so far treated me better than any of my exes. I’m hurt that I’m sharing him with someone, I don’t want to. I also feel bad for his girlfriend who I feel loves him too. Tried ending things again yesterday but one look at him and I’m back to him again. I used to be someone who loved with her head and now, my emotions are fucking me up.
PS. He is my first love or the first guy I have strong feelings for.
Maybe it’s because he is the second guy I have had sex with. The first was rape.
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Stop giving yourself “FILMSY” excuses to be Treated like GARBAGE …You really think even if they were to break up today,this so called FIRST LOVE of yours will take you serious ??HE NEVER WILL BECAUSE YOU WERE A SIDE CHICK ,while he had a serious relationship…QUIT THE EXCUSES AND FIND YOUR OWN MAN AND HEAL!!if it’s meant to be ,then relax,it’ll find its way to you..Side chic is what you’d always to be to this guy trust me ….Better use your head and not your pussy to think ..