I am really scared of what I might become later. I’ve been dealing with anxiety and depression for like a year plus now and things are not even getting better. People that I call FRIENDS have been revealing who they really are. Dad is fucked up on his own, heartbreaks here and there, still in love with my ex while she has moved on, no one paying attention to me, health issues getting out of hand. Literally there are so many stupid things in my head that I can’t even control anymore. I feel like I have lost the real me, I often get sad instead being happy. No one around to tell how I feel and would understand. I have several panic attacks that I can’t even control at all. I don’t have peace, mom and my sisters have been telling me for the past two weeks that they saw me die in the dream. For God’s sake, are they supposed to be telling someone that has anxiety that type of thing, huh? Now I’m over thinking it, believing that my life is going to end soon. Even the music that I do scares me at times because I record my songs based on how I feel at that moment. Now think, Imagine how my songs will sound like. It’s always a sad song🥺🥺. I cry everyday and night hoping that one day I’ll be fine. I believe that at a point when I had my baby around, my moonlight😭😭 but she ain’t here no more. My heart beats slowly every day because it’s already too weak to carry my pain. I love my baby so much and I miss her because she cares about me. I still wish you could come back to me because i need you. I am going to wait for you i swear😭😭💔. I don’t know what to do anymore. I give up😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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