Lonelybird

My husband is 15yrs older than me, he is not my type of man and I am not in love with him. I’ve tried to be but to no avail which has led me to cheat on him. I know you will ask then why did u marry him? Yes i married him for the benefits that comes with marrying him but i thought i will be able cope with living with him but the few years I’ve been with him has been hell and i am so unhappy even though i have everything i need. But I don’t love this man and it’s really eating me up and making me very unhappy. I don’t know what to do. I feel like it’s not the right time to leave him. Am so sad.