Cried so much for the past three years, prayed and fasted yet life situation did not change, people hurt and humiliated me. Fast forward to this year, I noticed I don’t cry anymore, even the most touching and difficult situations does nothing to me, a close friend died even though it hurt badly yet no single tears. Now my sister told me I don’t laugh out any more, I just stare, smile and move on. I swear I used to be very emotional. I hate how life changed me