4 months ago, a senator offered me #15m for a night and I refused. Didn’t refuse outrightly but I strung him along a bit. Needed to think about it and even started having dreams of his wife strangling me. I always thought when I’m presented an opportunity like that I would take it but instead I chickened out, I feel so dumb especially now that I had sex with a guy I met 1 week ago who never gave me a dime but ghosted me the next day. I need to stop using emotions with my body. Spent all these months thinking when next I’ll have sex, it would be special, just to be treated worse than a whore. Why do I keep doing stupid shit like this