Am I toxic or not. I don’t know. I always considered myself lucky in female friendships and I was cool with my little circle but right now I don’t even know if I consider anyone my friend anymore. I’ve lost friends that I never believed I would, my friend for years is no longer my friend, someone I referred to as my friend who’s like my mommy is no longer my friend. I’ve lost two of my friends and the remaining friends I have, I no too send because it feels like eventually we’ll all end up the same way. It’s like a nonchalant feeling right now, like waiting for the inevitable to happen. I really hate to feel this way but I am just tired of keeping up it hurts when it ends.