Reflecting on all the relationship I have been in, I’m so ashamed of myself. Just three people have treated me like they really value me, others is something I should hide my face in shame. I have bad anxious attachment, just hello I’m already attached, seeing future with them, this and that. Is it the sex aspect of it, it got bad I started dating married men. They just sleep with me, give me #2k, #4k, #5k, #10k or #20k. Highest a married man has given me is 50k and then they discard me like I’m nothing. No relationship has given ne #100k, just peanut. I’m desperate, I’m depressed, I’m too cheap. I even started hawking items in the market to make money for myself, got money but the business went bad. I hate myself, all I just want is to be loved and I won’t look bad. I try fine small. I’m tired.