My parents hated the fact that I was fat growing up as a child. They called me out and said demeaning things to hurt me as a child. At a time, I will dress up to join them to church and after opening the gate, they would drive off and leave me because I looked big in clothes, I just stayed at home and on Sundays till date, I hate going to church. After a surgery I had, my dad told me to stop eating because I gained weight. He will buy treats and say nobody should give me. My mum never addressed it for one day, she argues with me for not going to church but I don’t see a need to. My both parents were evil. I carry so much insecurities, I think I’m not good enough anywhere. It has affected my life, my relationships, men use me because I don’t have self worth. I have decided to stay off men for now after getting infection from a married man whose wife is in the village. I didn’t know! I would never hurt anyone in my life. I’m always struggling to be seen. I’m tired.