I just started my housemanship, just when i imagined I’ll have a good time, make new friends learn and develop myself better at saving lives, and start earning little money. Sadly, it turns out to be the most draining and mentally exhausting time of my life! I barely even have time for myself, I get verbally abuse by my consultants, stressed out a lot trying to be there for others while I’m battling mentally low key. I knew it won’t be so easy for one year but this is even worse than i imagined, the pay is low and the environment is toxic for me even. I wanna change the clinic I’m in because it’s not it for me but it’s so difficult to change at the moment, I’m trynna save lives but who is gonna save me!