I regret not choosing myself, I regret not doing the things I wanted and always being too careful because I wanted to live an exemplary life for my siblings. The audacity of one carrying unwanted pregnancy and the other one hating me for helping out with her education. I should have just lived for me. My time, efforts and finances all for what now
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hey. I understand the regrets you are feeling atm, I was in similar but you see the earlier you move on from this and begin enjoying your time and finances for you, the better. I understand how hurtful family betrayal can be but now the handwriting is clear on the wall that they didn’t want to look up to you to learn, they picked their own path. It isn’t your fault, as for the finances and efforts, it’s gone. Begin enjoying life and living for you!