I’m playing a losing game. It’s been 7 years already. I might not have given my all but I’ve given a lot and I would’ve continued if a lot was enough but unfortunately, I need to invest more than a lot. I’ve come to realize i can’t do this without people. Yes I’m talented and skillful but where will that take me without the wealth of people. The one thing I’m terrible at, is unfortunately the strongest factor in building a career like this but I can’t keep hating myself for my social anxiety. I’m tired of “you will go places” I want to get there already but that’s never happening without people, not fans. People!