I started a relationship with a guy who told me he hasn’t healed from his ex. I had an abortion in my final year (no regrets) and in the course of our relationship of 2 years, we went out just once. I pressured him till we did. I asked him to do the little things for me, it made him hate me more. He came to show me his new car but this boy made me borrow money for the abortion, he didn’t give it to me till date. Please tell me how best to love myself. I’m a failure. I just feel like I actually hate my life.