I involved God in my life, now everything is upside down. Decided to be real and honest and work hard and pray. Now nothing seems to be working for me. I was way better than I was before I went back to God. At least on my own I knew no one was coming to save me so I manipulated whatever outcome I needed to survive, now it’s just hard work and hoping on a God that won’t show up. I can’t even afford data. Ordinary data!