My husband is not a bad man but I just feel like he isn’t the right man for me. Knowing what I know now I wouldn’t have married him. When I met him, I was 22 years and he was my first ever relationship and first of everything. Before him I never knew what I wanted in a man but I knew what I wanted my future marriage to look like. However, none of it is playing out. I wanted a friend, someone I could comfortably be me with, someone who showed interest in my interests, someone I could be my most feminine self with and would indulge me but omo this marriage feels like it’s forcing me to grow up into this boring person with a completely different personality. I wish I married someone who was a friend to me at least. My husband is the type of person whom all his friends would know every good or bad news about him first before I ever would. His friends would give the advice and get the follow up while I’d be informed after he’s already made his decision. We could be sitting together and something would happen and instead of being like babe can you imagine this or that, he would go and call him friend and give him all the gist lol. I am trying not to let a lot of things bother me but I wish I knew any better, I wish I could get better