Since my last relationship, I have built a wall around me unintentionally and I just realized that. It’s like I literally clocked out of love and all. I keep saying no to everyone who ask me out, like I show absolutely no interest, almost like I am scarred or I am just scared of building all over again only for it to come crash again. I know i love love and want it but I find myself being unable to go for it anymore.
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i have never felt so lonely in my 20 years of living, i’m 20 and i have never been in a relationship before😓, i’m skinny i weigh 108lb, maybe that’s the reason, i’ve been trying to gain weight, not working. also i relocated to the US, it’s been a year now, i guess they just want me to be someone who’ll warm up their bed at nights, and i don’t like that, i thought i did cause the idea of having a boyfriend was strange to me, but now i want a boyfriend, i just want to be hugged, i want to be considered, i have never been considered and it’s so sad. trying to stop myself from crying. ill be fine😃