My boyfriend and I started dating when I was 17. Fresh off high school, we started living together immediately we started dating. I was terrible at communication and sex and a lot more. Through the course of our relationship, we’ve broken up a couple times. He’s complained about us being sexually incompatible (he has a high drive) which even led to him sending me out of his place one time because he said he wanted space and to find someone who would love him properly. This time, he brought his ex over and they had a time (I know because I saw messages) months later he apologized and asked that I come back. It’s been a crazy ride. My issue now is I’m 23 and he’s almost 30, we had a conversation about kids and I told him I wasn’t ready. We aren’t even financially comfortable yet but I told him even if I had all the money, I still won’t want kids now. He’s been making me feel like the bad person for this, bringing it up randomly. Sometimes I even feel guilt tripped by the statements he made. Saying I’m living up to my aunts expectations (My aunt is over 50 without a child or a husband). And it annoys me but mostly stirs up feelings of uncertainty. Am I a bad person for not wanting a child now, because my mates are having children now I should too