Of recent I haven’t been feeling like myself, I’ve been thinking a lot which gives me a splitting headache and the only way I can get out of my head is when I hurt myself by cutting or burning myself. And I got back with an ex flame, he asked to see me and I had to travel to Abuja to see him. Mind you I had to lie to my mum before I was able to travel and somethings went down. We spoke about my mental state and he said I should promise him not to hurt myself again cause he’ll be by my side no matter what. Long story cut short he was distant and busy with work and spoke to him about it and in his words he said “I can’t be the most available guy and all I need from you is your support and understanding not your attention” and I said okay that I can do and little by little I also became distant only for him to say he thinks we should end things and I tried persuading him to change his mind and he was firm with his decision. I can’t lie it made me think about my life and myself a little too deep so I decided to ask him what went wrong and he said it’s cause I don’t give him my attention. I was really heartbroken about that and I still love him and want to get back with him but I think it’s best I let him go. And I’ve returned back to hurting myself, I know it’s just for a while🙃