I miss the me before that relationship. I fell in love with a man and I fell in love a naive girl, I didn’t expect him to cheat, but he did. Over 4 times, I didn’t intend to do back one day, because I loved him. But one time we argued about me lying and we broke up, not very long after I saw someone else and he found out. I ruined the man I loved, we tried to work it out. It was on and off, I wasn’t allowed to tell anyone we were working it out. Some days he was on okay, the others he just looked for any reason to fight. Till the 5th month, he told me he didn’t want me, he just didn’t want me to move on. We were barely speaking, always fighting and blocking each other. Until I met someone else, that loved me enough to want to move heaven and earth in my name. I didn’t love him but I loved how much he loved me. My ex found out about it and now we are done full time. 2 months later, I blocked my new man on everything cause he said he can’t do a relationship without sex. Neither can I, but I don’t love him so we can’t fuck. Now I just lie to men for fun and run when they ask for anything that pass a kiss. I miss loving one man 😔