I lost my virginity at the age of 16 to rape, it was my uncle. Had my first actually sex at the age of 18 and it wasn’t as sensational as what I expected it to be. I was raped again by my male best friend then at 19 and as much as I wanted him to stop I enjoy it more than normal sex. Now I only orgasm when I think I’m being raped or when I watch forced porn.