My zeal to die is greater than my zeal to live. I don’t like the fact that I was born. I’ve tried to bury these thoughts and I did for close to a year but I just got reminded of everything they’ve done for me and how I’m nothing at this age. I’ve never felt like leaving this earth more than I do right now. I’m scared of living and I’m scared of killing myself because what if I go to hell. I wish I was aborted.