Just turned 20 in August and I’ve never felt confused and pressured my entire life. I was in school last year but didn’t go for the course I wanted, decided to switch courses to psychology and unfortunately I was scammed and my money was stolen and he ran away. Took jamb this year while waiting for admission. Tried learning makeup, wasn’t my passion, tried learning tech, same thing even though my folks suggested it and said how good it’ll be for me along the line. Last year, was just emotionally down and contemplated suicide, then I was scammed and it was just the height of it all but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Now this year is just so much worse. I feel like I’m running out of time, I’m 20 for God’s sake but I’m not doing anything. I’m not in school (had low jamb score, even beginning to have doubts for admission) no work nothing. Told my family I wanted to work but said I shouldn’t and just focus on school. I really want to go to school and study psychology that’s my passion, that’s what i actually want because no one cared to ask me. I’m tired man and I just get so sad it’s draining me. My spiritual journey is not so good anymore and I just feel God is so far away even though he’s not against me and I know he loves me and believe me I’m trying but I don’t feel his presence. Not to compare but I see my mates doing something, excelling, I’m supposed to be in my 300level right now but I feel so stuck. I’m scared of failure. I feel so choked up typing this and I hate it, this weight is killing me and I know I’m smart very smart so why me. What happening. Do you know how it feels seeing your mates from secondary school getting to their final years while feeling stuck. I know everyone’s journey is different but come on! I can’t deny myself of the way I’m feeling. I used to be a happy kid but now I can’t remember the last time I was genuinely happy. I’m not even motivated to do anything anymore not even to study because this sad spirit is just making me lose any interest I had in so many things. Help me.