Love is really not for everyone, all i get are guys that just want sex, i have always gotten played and in 2020 when my situationship goshed me till today it gave me ptsd. No matter how short or long i have known someone for i just feel they will eventually go so i end up spoiling thing myself unintentionally. Lol even if i no spoil am e go still spoil woo i just want to decenter men. I am tired!😭