I’ve lost faith in the church. Since I could think and read well, I’ve doubted everything because of my curiosity. I try to go back but I fall in doubt again. From my childhood till now, so many questions I have but they tell me not to question God or call me the devil because there are no answers for real. I just want a relationship with God that’s different from the church and accommodating because this Christianity condemns and manipulates if you think about it. I’m grown and I still battle these thoughts because I’m not ready to face the truth glaring in my face and it’s not in party with the church. No, it’s not the devil. Lord help me.