I betrayed myself because i promised myself that i wont ever ask you to come and visit me again because of what you said when i asked you to come. I felt like what the point of having a girlfriend and be scared of asking her to come and visit me. So i just decided to break my promise and ask again, giving you 4 full days notice. You made me feel like i was begging you, you didnt respond to the request till the second day. I had to constantly ask you if you were coming, only to ask you on that day and you told me you are at your office. No heads up, no explanation, no nothing. I am very angry at myself because i promised myself that i wont ever ask again. The annoying part is that you dont show excitement for any plans i make but you went to see a movie with another guy all he had to do was ask you, you even lied about going to see a movie with the guy. The consolation i have is that i know i was good to you and i deserve better.