There was a time after finding out my ex was dating someone days after we ended the on off relationship, I completely lost it. I somehow found the new girl’s page and that’s how I was stalking her on IG and TikTok. I just kept asking myself how he could move on so fast, I wanted to know what she had or was doing that made him be with her, it was so scary but I couldn’t stop, even called him with an unknown number pretending to be her and that’s when I realized I wasn’t ok, I had to delete my social media apps and just be. Now looking back omo I must have been so hurt to have behaved that way, pain does a lot, I am grateful for growth, plus lack of self esteem join but I am healed now and I love my flawed self mashallah