My boyfriend of 8 years is fond of lieing whenever I confront him of cheating, he’ll only fall back if I bring forth proof that confirms I know he’s cheating then he apologizes. I find it extremely hard to let go, he’s my first & only. I find it hard starting all over again with someone else cause he’s all I’ve ever known. I feel like I need help, I don’t have any one to talk to about this. He spends money on his friends both male and female but never on me, he’ll always claim broke and I tend to always have pity on him. I feel like I’m too understanding because he never gets me any gifts or takes me out. I’ve spoken to him severally about it but nothing seems to change. I’m genuinely tired & exhausted I wish I had someone to talk to and cry to. Sincerely wish I had a big sister or brother, I feel so alone.