I guess it’s cause I’m used to laughing at my predicaments😂 but then again, life isn’t just it. Yeah right! Everyone’s tryna pull through, I’m tired. sooooo tired! sooo tired! life seems to be so unfair to me. I feel like I’m not pushing hard or I need to push harder, I’m tired. I feel damaged. My love life is like a no go back, no go front lol yeah right. I feel like I’m not supposed to be here (unalive). I think about the people my demise would shatter. I’m not selfish, I just wanna be normal. Live normal, breath normal, eat normal ,Love normal. I don’t even love myself, how can I love someone. Feelings don dry for my body. Lmao. I pray to God that I be normal but then I’m far from normal, I want to run away 😂😂. I’m slowly giving up, depressed, drained. I hear whisper whenever my spirit is down, telling me to do it. I pray for healing