I have always felt like my cousins are closer to God than I am. Not just with God but in every other aspect of life too. I see their everyday post of the Bible, of a man of God, or some church program of some sort. With each views I feel like I’m not doing enough for God. I feel like they’re stronger in Christ than I am. While I’m spending my time in school looking for money to give myself a smooth ride through school and it’s hurdles. They spend their time with God. I want to be more than just a girl who bears a Christian name and prays only every morning and evening. I want to be able to mix this work life with school, God and every other activity without breaking a bone. I want to stop feeling less of a man and more. So help me God.
in Confession
Connotare 
If you ever decide to take your growth in God serious, don’t let it be because you want to outdo your cousins. That’s flesh. Let Jesus and his perfectness be who and what you look up to. Actions are important, but so are motives. And when you start growing, don’t pressure yourself. Your process might be different but sincerity is important. Sincerity and consistency. May God help you by his Holy Spirit. Amen.
Thank you so much 🤗 and Amen