I don’t know if I was at fault or if he was at fault. I was 10 when he started hitting on me and 13 when we first had sex, it was painful at first but I let it go on because he was older than me and I was scared 😟 of him. I didn’t want it to happen because he is my cousin but I was too scared and it went on for 2 years more. I feel dirty and irritated anytime I see men or whenever a man tries to talk to me, I am 22 years old and I am scared I won’t get married because my family has started throwing little light on marriage and children but they don’t know that it’s going to be hard for me to have children because I have PCOS 😭😭😭😭. I am so frustrated with life.