I was raped at 16 by multiple men, I was a virgin but I had been molested by 2 of my uncles (from my paternal side) since I was 8 years old till 9 years old. Then a plumber that used to help us fix stuff started using my hand to touch his penis when I was 10 years old and that stopped when I was nearing 11 years old. Though there was no deep penetration from all of them so I was a virgin before I got raped at 16 years old. So I noticed I didn’t enjoy normal sex when I started having sex at 19, it has to be rough or nonconsensual for me to enjoy it. So I tried to get help when I was 21 and I told my therapist everything and he used it against me. I went in for my session one evening (I usually do afternoon sessions but I was busy with schoolwork that week so I notified him I would be moving my sessions to the evening for that week), the third evening of that week was when he forced himself on me and I hate myself till this day for it because I had multiple orgasms and he knew. After he finished he rubbed it in my face saying he knew I enjoyed every minute of it. Anyway, that was the last time I ever visited a therapist. I’m 26 now and married with a child (my husband doesn’t know any of this) and I still have the same issues. If anything my therapist made it worse.