On Sunday, while I was leaving the mall. I met this guy, he asked for my number and I gave it to him. He asked where I was headed and apparently we stay in the same area. He offered to drop me, I was initially reluctant but after much persistence I gave in. He dropped me and he left, we’ve been talking since then and he said he’d like to meet again before he travels. Yesterday, he kept calling and begging that we link up, I agreed and at night he came to pick me and we went to the beach. He was very calm, reserved, gentle, polite and caring. I noticed he had tattoos and I asked to see then he said “you’ll see when we get back” and I interrupted and asked him “get back to where”? He said his place and immediately I told him I’m not going back to his place with him, that he’s going to drop me home after and then he called me “Debby Downer” or so and proceeded to say I was acting like a 12 year old. I became quiet and didn’t say anything and we left the beach. When we got in the car I told him again that I wasn’t going back to his place with him so he should take me home, he said no problem and that I ruined his day. The ride home was silent and awkward but I didn’t care. When we got to the estate junction, he said he wanted to drop off somethings at the hotel where he lodged and that it’ll only take a minute, I said no problem and that I’ll stay in the car. He said no that I should help him carry some of the stuff he wanted to drop in the room, stupid me believed him and carried it and followed him. We got to the room and things took a different turn quickly. He said he wanted to shower and I’m like while I’m here? Shouldn’t you drop me first? He said it won’t take time and I should please wait. I waited, I sat on the edge of the bed when this boy came out of the bathroom naked and rushed at me. I was struggling with him, shouting and begging him to stop. He forcefully pulled my clothes and resisted all the efforts I was making to push him away. He had his way and I just succumbed because there was really nothing else I could do to defend myself, he’s huge and easily overpowered me. I was crying the whole time but he didn’t even notice until when he was done and was telling me to stand up and go clean up. When he realized I was crying, he walked to me and said what’s wrong. I didn’t say anything, then he said “at least say something even if you’ll insult me, so you can feel better” this entire time I was still in shock and couldn’t believe all that just happened. I picked up my clothes and started to look for a ride, took about 30 mins before I was finally able to get a ride, this was about 1:30am in the morning. He casually said “stop being immature and say something, are you just going to leave without talking to me? Why not just sleep and stop stressing yourself about getting a ride and just leave in the morning”. Then he went to sleep, shortly after the driver called and said he was outside. He opened his eyes at the same time and said so you’re really leaving, he watched me as I opened the door and left and he just stood there. All of this happened this morning and up till this moment, I still can’t believe what happened to me. I want to believe it’s just an imagination so bad but it happened. I’ve been crying since then till now and I really can’t fathom what to do or how to deal with this pain that I’m feeling. I can’t even speak to anyone about it because what was I thinking. I’m so angry and hurt and this bastard has not even called or texted or tried to apologize! Did i mention that I told him “you just violated me and forced yourself on me and you still have the guts to ask me what did you do and why am I crying??” This guy said “Sorry, I was high”. I feel so helpless and wronged but isn’t it all my fault.