I try to make certain things look better than they are in making my living condition sound better than they are. I’m too embarrassed to have him come over. I feel ashamed. Maybe it’s my inferiority complex rearing a head. But it’s quite easy opening my heart to him than with anyone ever. I don’t want it to come off as o I’m with this this guy because he’s wealthy or what i hope to get. That’s not true. He might just be a good companion and not necessarily that person for me no matter how good he makes my heart feel. How do I get over it? I don’t want anyone looking down on my family. Is it just me?