The first time I tried hooking up with someone i chickened out on giving up my V card, I felt bad and somehow pressured myself into giving him a blowjob instead, I was bad at it and hated it. The second time I chickened out again but i actually wanted to give a blow job this time because I wanted hear him fully turned on, I was still not good at it tho but i think i like giving blow jobs now but i still skip that part in porn, my only source for learning. I’m a confused soul.