Life can be soo harsh🥲. To think I never asked to be born😂😂. Ever since my parents and immediate elder sibling died, I’ve always felt alone. I have five other siblings that are older but the age difference is very broad. I’ve always known I’m a burden to them. Everyone is trying to cover it up and act like we’re ever since the last time I made a mistake (I was a juvenile and was alone without much closeness to anyone). It’s been years now but I am still walking on egg shells around every one and I feel they are doing the same too. They’ve always been the one to manipulate and plan my life for me , under the guise that they’re more experienced than me and are older. I’m done with school and finished NYSC since last year but every attempt and decision I bring up towards getting a job or learning a skill or furthering my education or anything else has always been put off with one excuse or another. A sibling of mine lives in a very good state and has connections with big men because of the nature of his job but still hasn’t been able to assist me in getting even a low paying job. The ones I got when I was with him there he stood against it saying he has better plans for me and he’s still saying the same till now. Shebi na life I dey live so? Everyone just wants me to get married. They feel I’m a fine girl and of age. They just want to ship me offto some man and wash hand off my case😂😂. Why my mum go just leave me like this?😏 To think my name was the last thing on her lips before she passed on…God bless her soul. I stopped crying or showing emotions for a long time now. To think my sibling just called me a lone wolf because I told him my job application was not successful 😂😂 abi na craze I wan craze like this? Shaa I’m done. This is me running of the remaining emotions to zero😭 for my sanity. 😔