Ever since my last relationship which ended a year ago, I’ve been so scared to let anyone close to me. I always feel like everyone is going to hurt me , so whenever I see that i’m catching feelings or getting attached, I self sabotage the relationship and run away. Rather hurt myself than let another person hurt me again. I don’t want to go through what I went through again.( I almost killed myself). I think I need a therapist but they’re too expensive!!