I’m quite sadder than I have always been and it’s lasting longer than usual. I just pretend to be happy most of the time. I can talk to people but I feel like they won’t understand me. There was a revelation about me dying this month. If I can’t help myself I’m scared that I will unalive myself.


  1. Hey there, I’m sorry you feel this way. I don’t know what makes you unhappy but i want you to know that you deserve happiness. Our stories might be different but i lived like that once and it was hell, and although things aren’t much different now, i make it my duty to seek my own happiness. Don’t pretend to be happy, seek and do what makes you happy. Dostoyevsky said, “the greatest source of happiness is to know the source of unhappiness”. Life is hard, but in my opinion you can find things to live for, you being the first. Also, revelations only reveal but they can be prevented and i hope God in his mercies illuminates your spirit. I will keep you in my prayers and i hope you stay alive till you see all the beautiful things you have envisioned for yourself come to life. ❤💡

  2. Hi, I don’t think I really understand whatever it is you are going through even if you let me in, but God understand. He knows why you are feeling the way you feel, He sees everything. All you just need to do is to be surrendered to Him and His Word. I can show you how, If you are willing.
    Concerning the revelation, I can tell you that God did not reveal anything to you, then it’s not true. Remember on christ the solid rock you should stand and all other ground is sinking sand. Please reach out to me if you really want to get out of this.

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