I know we can’t get married, not that i don’t want it, but it just can’t happen. I won’t break it off with you now because i want to be obsessed with you, and when we both ready for marriage i’d break it off, ask me why ? cause i want to feel hurt! I want to hurt myself so so bad, i want to loose appetite and starve myself, do heavy drugs and end up in the hospital. That’s one of my fantasies .