We’ve been together for about 2 years now although our relationship is controversial because of age, distance and finances , as much as she wouldn’t admit it. I’m really in love with her and I’d love to spend my life with her. I have big plans for me and her in motion and I’m expecting huge results but she doesn’t see it and now I think she’s been seeing other guys and having sex with them, I’ve asked but of course she probably won’t tell me. I’ve been loyal even though I have a lot of admirers. I don’t know if I should let go or remain optimistic, I don’t know if she really loves me anymore.I want to make a trip to be with her but she has other plans with other people, I’m hurt and a bit confused. I just want us to grow and be better together but I don’t know what she wants.