I was supposed to graduate this year but due to aggressive life mismanagement I have to restart the entire tertiary education process. No money, no motion. Nothing. Sometimes I just sit down and throw my head back in devilish laughter because idk what else to do. Everyone around me is increasingly concerned as they feel I might harm myself. I just want to wake up with joy in my heart and attack the day. I don’t care for achievements or material possessions. I just want to smile again