I don’t even know what I’m doing right now. I’m being forced to learn what I don’t wish to learn which is barbing during this asuu period. I don’t even know if my parents are actually have good intentions for me. I don’t even trust anyone anymore, can’t even think for myself, almost everything I do is being dictated for me, I’m just trying to live out of fear now. Since I’ve started this barbing trade, honestly I don’t feel fulfilling because I don’t have time doing what I love to do. I’m just there. Tbh. I don’t even have friends to speak with, no woman, I’ve been celibate for more than 2years now. I really need a change of environment to better my mental health but my family makes me think if I don’t learn barbing I won’t prosper in life and thereby exposing me to unnecessary dangers of people I don’t even know. It sucks. They are happy that I’m learning the trade while I’m unhappy about it. I can’t even say a word, next thing is ‘im sorry for your life this boy, if you don’t learn that barbing you will regret it later in life and then your mate will leave you behind’ and this makes me feel so bad that I always just want to please them. I just wish I can have my freedom. Is it like I can’t make it in life without learning barbing. I told them I want to learn digital skills like; graphics design, app development and animation. But they tend to make it seem like they’re irrelevant and barbing is the skill I need! Gosh!! It sucks!!!