My ex boyfriend(2018), I was madly inlove and I would’ve done anything for him. At a point, he would always reject anything besides making out and fingering me, no orals. I was a virgin and didn’t want the sex, he wanted he kept telling me don’t worry you’ll have sex soon then one day I went to his house happy only for me to leave sad, he had raped me and was smiling. He got me plan b on the way to my house, I was in denial, the man I loved had raped me. When he said sex I agreed it was sex and two days later I was blocked everywhere. I didn’t cry till two years later now, I don’t know how to love or show emotions, I push everyone away.