In my almost 27 years, the three guys have slept with are in serious relationship. The first one I didn’t know, he disvirgined me and went back to his girlfriend. The second one, I was so desperate for any kind of relationship and I willingly enter friends with benefits kind of situation ship for over 3 years (maybe I felt he would leave her for me but I guess I wasn’t enough). I accept a whole lot of rubbish and spoke less about my feelings. Today now, I had sex with another person in a relationship. I don’t know what I want to achieve with this nonsense I am doing.