I’m seriously tired of explaining to everyone around me why I’m still single. I’m 21 and I’ve been single for 4 years lol. Truth is I find dating exhausting and mentally draining plus I’m trying to figure out this thing that I have going on. My ex and I broke up 4 years ago but I still think about him everyday, I pray for him all the time and every time we talk or see I still get those butterflies in my tummy lol. I know I still feel things for him and I’m trying not to be hard on myself to move on or be with someone else. Relationships aren’t just my thing. It’s overwhelming sometimes because he has absolutely no idea how I feel and he keeps coming in and out of my life and everytime he does it brings me back to square one. Anyways this isn’t about him, I’m just saying- I have to figure out what’s going on in my heart first before I let someone else in.