People really underrate the after effects of rape at a young age I got raped at 8 years old, during my healing process I hated men. Next stage, I became an addict started smoking to suppress my pains I could be having sex with someone an literally want to kick you out. It fucked me up, I finally opened up to my boyfriend and he took it like I’m using it to justify me cheating on him. I’m 19+ I hope I truly heal soon because I have realized I have to lived with this trauma and God eventually sends me a partner who will understand me and work with me towards change and healing.