There’s this hooligan I’ve loved since 2018 but he is a hoe. We really liked each other at first, then we had a fallout (kind of my fault). I’ve tried to get over him, blocked him for a few years & somehow, I still like the idiot. At this point, I’m sure it’s a curse. All I want is for us to be vulnerable with each other & be together permanently, but I know it’s impossible with him, he will never & I can’t share. When we gist, I cover up my feelings with jokes & lies, because I know I cannot survive another heartbreak. He can be very mean, I’ve witnessed his wickedness first hand & I still haven’t recovered from it.
My business & career just started coming together, so I can’t afford to be distabilised. I’ve decided to fast & pray that God destroys these feelings because this a curse. Right now, there’s someone that worships the ground I walk on, I’m 100% sure he will make a great dad & husband, he is so kind & gentle with me, but I don’t love him, the passion is not there for me. I have tried & forced myself to love him but It’s not working. I’m not getting any younger, I need to get over him asap, so I can settle without feeling attached.
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😂😂 it’s the holigan for me
I pray God breaks the curse and u find a way to love the man that loves u
From your write-up, it sounds like a trauma bound not love. Don’t block him just change your number go no contact again. Oga na narcissistic person so run for your life. I have come to realize that the best thing any woman can do for herself is to marry a man that loves her. Having a healthy relationship is a big win in this area that we are in right now. I wish you healing and happiness 😍 chose who make you feel special