I’m so tired of staying in this house, I’m just done. I’m grateful for my mom and I’ll forever be thankful for everything that’s she done to me but God has she messed a big part of my life up. She’s so protective and so involved in my life it’s literally choking me. I’m 21 years old and i haven’t done half the things my mates are doing- I’ve never been to a concert, never been on a date, never been to the cinema, never slept over, I’ve never had a friend over. I’m always at home or at her shop. I’m so used to the fact that she’ll never let me have a normal life that it has even become normal. Even my romantic life has even suffered, do I even have one?- the last time I was in a relationship was 4 years ago and I was 17 but every time I look back at that beautiful relationship I had, I only remember how completely happy I was and all the things I could have done for him, with him but my mom made that relationship end, he told me a big reason why he left was because I was always hiding under my mom’s shadow, he knew I was scared of her, he knew how she was but he still loved me so much but he couldn’t handle it anymore. Now I can’t even be with anyone anymore because I don’t think anyone will understand me like that, I’m lonely and I miss one person and my life just currently sucks. I can’t wait to go for my NYSC sha, at least I’ll have one year alone so I can figure myself out. I’m still trying to a do little self discovery now but it’s really hard to do especially when your mom still treats you like your 13. I just need help with all this and I really miss you Patrick