I’m writing this with tears in my eyes 3:49am cause I feel so lonely ,living life being broke and an introvert who overthinks and has a paranoia about trusting people is hard. I don’t believe people actually love me and try to hide under this ‘hard guy” pretence but guess what they don’t actually make efforts to stay. Am I going to die alone 🙂? Sometimes I just wish one disaster happens and kills just me atleast I wouldn’t have to kill myself and I would finally be at peace 🙂